I live in Illinois I am umemployed and have a 6 yr old I am unhappily married I am always depressed and the?

tension in my home is so thick you can cut it with a knife. My husband takes everything out on me Ive gained weight to cope Im so afraid if I leave where would I go? How would I pay for the house. I cannot remember when we ever did anything as a family. He is great with our daughter but it isnt enough. The thought of putting her thru this sickens me can someone please help. Also I am not a gold digger by all means in fact if he gives me 30 dollars for example on a Monday for an example and Im broke on a Weds he's like "whrere did it go you must lose it etc. I have tried to find a pt job to have my own money but no luck please someone can you help me